torn

Do you question the direction you're going? Do you ever wonder if all the work you've done is leading you to something that you weren't even really made for? I've often asked these questions, and I'm sure I'll continue. However, I've begun to realize that these are healthy questions to ask. They force you to really consider why you're doing the things you're doing and listen to the voice of God and His leading in life.
Right now I'm taking a year off of school to work full-time before possibly entering medical school (depending on whether or not I get in), but I've also always been interested in pursuing a career in music. I feel like God really has called me to help others, and medicine is an incredible outlet to do this. However, I also feel like I've been given some talent in different areas of art... mainly singing, and it's hard to know which to choose. Maybe I'm supposed to continue pursuing both of these paths and allow God to lead me through the dark areas that I'm unable to decipher. I know that He could use me in amazing ways through both medicine and performance, and I guess I just have to trust that He'll show me what to do with both opportunities. The most important thing to me, no matter where I end up, is that I am able to glorify Christ in my daily life. I have faith that He'll guide me as long as I seek Him. I'm excited about what's ahead.
Why did I write this? I'm not sure. But I know it's something that almost everyone struggles with, and I think it helps to know you're not the only one with questions and fears. We serve a huge, incredible God, and I'm so glad I have the assurance of Him.

Actually writing something serious,
Robby